Don't Let Them Tell You

Today I read some things that really disturbed me. It was another example of people holding us back from sobriety and self love. The more research I do on addiction the more I realize that most of the individuals that speak or write about addictions are opinions that have evolved from some type of reading material. Today I read "No One Chooses to be a drug addicted". Okay, I won't embarrass the genius that quoted that, and I know none of us have sat up in the morning and planned to be a blown out junkie. But it is not something we are born with as the genius from above states. I know that I am going against the books and the educated individuals that have studied addiction but studying it and living it is to total different perceptions. So why would their theory make more sense than a recovered addict. Now it is clearly your choice to follow what feels right to you and this is clearly my opinion developed from experience.

I find it funny that the number one addiction right now in America is prescriptions pain killers, ex. Roxi's Oxycontin. For the one's of us that have experienced the ones prescribed now a days verses the ones prescribed ten years ago, know that there is no comparison. The first time I had one of these I thought someone had given me some acid or a weak ecstasy pill. I could not believe that it was a pain killer. Plus the chance of becoming highly dependent on the newer ones is about 80% more likely than then the normal vicodin or percocet. On top of all that, the likelihood that someone will be able to establish sobriety after abusing them is rare. i have seen individuals walk around with a cup to spit the blood in that they cough up when their body is withdrawing from not having the drug as soon as twelve hours from there last intake. I watched a grown man curl up on the floor shaking, puking, and sweating profusely trying to come of these. Ten years ago the average monthly supply for a pain killer was closer to ninety pills. The smallest prescription I have seen in the ;last four years is 200 a month. Why are the newer ones so much worse in ever factor? What is now being prescribed is synthetic heron. Everyone has seen or heard what the street heron does and it is illegal so why is it being subscribed in outrage dosage and milligrams to 90% of the people on pain killers.

So tell me again, addiction is something we are born with? What kind of Crap supports that notion.

I would say that these legal killers being supplied to the people are nothing more than a money making industry and a tactic to control population. A 100 years ago people suffered thought the pain without a lot less help and still maintained a full time hard job. Woman still today are having children without a single bit of pain medication....No wonder this world is where it is today. The government has enabled and promoted their people to become lazy and weak. They allow us to rant and rave about anything, then get us doped up out of minds, and eventually deteriorate from the abuse. I say to you scientist to open your eyes and come to terms as to what and where addiction stems from. To myself and other addicts, once you have realized that you put yourself there, go ahead and thank the government for assisting you in the hole you dug and pulling up the ladder once you fell in.

Here's another example of how addiction is pushed in our face every day. The two worst addictions are legal! The first is the silent killer... Smoking kills numerous amount of people and its not the nicotine that does, its all the chemicals the government add in for flavor. The other is alcoholism. The kicker with this addiction is that is not the user that usually suffers the worse consequences. It is the innocent individuals that are killed by a drunk driver that makes this addiction one of the leading causes of death.On top of that many recovered alcoholics still have to consume one alcoholic beverages a day otherwise their livers will shut down..

Come On... Addiction is shoved down our throats on every corner in America. So for the ones that believe you can never over come addiction because its something we are born with I say to you " Quit making excuses" Addiction is far from hereditary.. My mom never touched drugs and I was a full blown junkie..I wasn't even prejudice. I didn't choose one drug I choose them all and half the time I was high on more than one drug. as far as all the damage us addicts are suppose to never heal from, MORE CRAP!.I am still intelligent, beautiful and can comprehend more than my normal society standard neighbor. Your body's make up is created to heal which means with the proper steps you can heal from anyone. If you spoke to me face to face you would never know the fun , scary, and beneficial experience I have had on drugs. It UGGGGHHHH it erks me to see so many walk through this believing in everything but themselves... Don't listen to anything or anybody when everything inside of you is screaming something different. You control your thoughts and feelings. You only feel what you allow yourself to feel. No one can make you feel anything that choose not to. Faith in yourself is the most powerful tool you have in this world.. Don't let them tell you who are Don't let them tell you who you're going to be, don't let them tell you your weakness and set your limitations. That is you God giving right to decide those things not them Don't be the person they want you to be. Be the person you know you are and the person you choose to be.

Forget what you heard on the news or read in a book. Start with you! What void are you trying to fill with your addiction? What do you think you are missing? What do you think you need? When you realize the missing link is loving yourself for you not the person society wants you to be, the rest will fall into place. The answer lies from within you. Who the hell knows the inside of you. ONLY YOU! Don't be your own weakness or defeater, Be your champion Be your strength!

Are You Ready To Fight Your Addiction

Without wasting my time to research the statistics I would say that close to 95% of Americans suffer from some sort of addiction. Most people walk around without even realizing that they have one or truly want to admit they have something in common with someone who has or is suffering from a drug addiction.

So what makes any one addiction worse than the other? Some addictions CAN cause a more server affect on one's day to day activities, some endanger more individuals than the user, and some have a greater consequences to the users physical, mental, and inner health. An individual suffering from Addiction, regardless of their chosen poison, are trying to fill a void in their life. One addiction from the next is no different as to its reasoning. The proper definition for ADDICTION is the stat of being enslaved to a habit or practice or to something that is psychologically or physically habit-forming, as narcotics, to such an extent that it cessation causes serve trauma. Whatever the definition is we all suffer from it for one reason. We all use it to fulfill something that we think we are missing in our lives, whether you know whats missing or not. We all have some weakness or lack of feelings that have lead us down the road of entrapment. I speak from a great deal of experience and have beat many different addictions while also learning to use my addictions to benefit me. It may sound cray but at one point in my life my drug addiction almost killed and then later down the road, after 6 years of sobriety, my relapse saved my life. I was looked down upon and talked about during each of my drug induced time periods , but I still stand today without a single regret and proud of how far I have come, what I have learned, and all the crazy experiences I can share. I empowered by the times I have beat addiction, including nicotine, without the help of rehab or replacing one chemical for another.

For the ones that are suffering today, you have many options that are easily available.With that being said " It is what it Is" (my favorite slogan) meaning that fighting an addiction and being successful has to be an under lining inner desire. If your true meaning to accomplish sobriety is to please your loved ones, maybe you feel its the right thing to do but still want to get high, or to settle some legal issues then why stop now. I know that sounds horrible and half of society is probably appalled by that remark, but sobriety is not accomplished without true inner drive for the right reasons and you will only find yourself with a larger habit then you began with once you relapse. When you return to that lifestyle yourbody subconsciously feels the need to catch up for lost time. Many of you can relate if you have tried to quite smoking cigarettes. On the average most will have negative feedback and see it as another failure. Realistically if you are not a hundred percent in the game then you didn't give your all.. At that point you were suffering from what society calls A.D.D, your attention was else where and you were preoccupied. Never look at yourself as a failure!

Sucess is about trying something and when it does not work, you get up and try something new for the same goal. For every experience that did not have the outcome you expected or desired I guaranteed that you picked up something along the journey. If you gained knowledge, wisdom, or learned a lesson then you always took a step forward from the original starting line. You just took the scenic route or maybe just a detour. Remember it's not what happens along the way that determines your success or happiness its all about how you choose to handle it and perceive it.The first step in fighting addiction is do some cleaning from within. I am talking more about your soul verses the chemical cleansing. That will all follow once the impurities. misconceptions, and fears are released. From my own personal experience and from watching people fight addictions for the last 15 years, I have come to realize that the thing we all seem to be missing is different in each individual and nothings truly missing, it's all inside covered by our own insecurities. The hardest concept that we all have to face is that are lives are the exactly where we placed them to be. If your life is crap, reality is you, made it that way. It's your fault! I know that is harsh but you will never step forward with strength without TRUTH. Remember it is was you that decided your surroundings, the places you went, your home and social environments, and as an adult you can choose which family you exclude or do not exclude. It all comes back to your choices. Once you accept your screw ups and that the problems in your life were created by your own choices, you can begin to heal. You will also be able to focus on improvements instead of placing blame where blame does not belong.

Most of us fallen into to drugs and alcohol ultimately because we don't love ourselves. I don'tcare how much you succeed in life, if you do not love yourself eventually your world will come crashing down. The place to start this journey is learning to love yourself. This step can be accomplished by anyone that truly wants to seek a better life and not walk another day through the life they have already created.. I started by looking at things in a different light. I didn't know how to love myself nor did I feel I had any reason to especially where I had ended up. So instead I figured if loving myself would keep me from living the life I was walking through each day then I was determined to break the vicious downward spiral. I began telling myself that I loved myself, I was a good person, and that I deserve a better life. Now funny thing is, it took going in front of a mirror and looking myself dead in the eye and repeating those phrases. You have no idea how much I was laughed at and mocked.. The ones laughing are the one's who are no longer my friends and are suffering from self manipulation and mutilation. I said screw everybody and what they thought about me. Who gave them the right to tell me who I am. At that point I realized that being me is the one thing in this world that no one will ever be better at then me. I didn't need someone to dictate who I was or was not.Why did they have more of a deciding vote about my morals, thoughts, and actions, thats my decison. I started walking to me own beat in many different ways. It was not unnoticed and the more it was noticed the more it was envied and the less I was mocked. People would ask where and what I was doing. I just look at them,"I'm doing me!". "What's That" I would hear back. I would smile, sometimes shake my head and say"Whatever I Want. But you wouldn't understand cause your not me" What that did was take apart of my life and hold as my own.. It was just daily life but people say as something they could not explain, they could not share with me, and something they could not take from me. They weren't even sure what it was that sparked my fire but it was wanted... Then the games progressed with their jealousy and envy to break my smile, my strength, MY CONFIDENCE. The harder they tried the easier it got, the better I got, and It was more useful to keep smiling, keep telling myself my worth, and keep loving myself just to watch my so called friends ridicule me only out of disgust because they could not bring me down to their miserable level...MISERY ALWAYS LOVES COMPANY!!!

I brought you to where it begins in hopes that we can make the journey together and be successful. I have been there and know what it is like to be fighting this alone. I will try to stay ahead of the game and lend a helping hand, word, thought, or maybe a silly way to look at things that maybe slowing you down. Remember that 95% of Americans have an addiction, a small few will admit that they do and a smaller few will actually do something about it. It is a hard road especially without a good friend, so don't let that be an obstacle. Here is a safe place to find some help, comfort, and strength without being judged.. Who am I to say a word! I have been there and love to be the first to tell you about the times I fell flat on my face. I have always said that you may love me, you may hate me, but you will never forget me because I am JustUrDestiny.